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Wardrobe to Lift the Spirit

May 15, 2017 =========== My cousin gave me a garbage bag full of new clothes she can no longer wear.  She has a great job and a husband who works hard, and together they've managed to afford for her to keep her closet stocked with some lovely articles of clothing.  For me, this means an entirely new wardrobe, which happened at the moment and month when I had just started to question whether my previous wardrobe's age was contributing somewhat to my depression.  It's amazing how much a new item of clothing can lift the spirits and remind a person about the light at the end of any tunnel.  If I were a wealthy person, I'd love to share gifts with less fortunate people than myself, just to be able to bear witness to the less fortunate person feeling the way it made me feel when I brought my 'new' wardrobe home to my closet.  :-) Having this new wardrobe has given me some brief reminders about how much I value and love my body.  I'm still disappointed and ...
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March 23, 2017

11:30 am ============ This morning, I counted the weeks since I re-initiated my morning gym routine.  Tomorrow marks the end of week 11.  This realization is encouraging for me, since all week I have been feeling like I have had to strive extra hard just to get myself out the door, drive to gym, get on the cardio machines, then complete my weights.   I've battled my depressive thinking, and all of the sinful urges to make excuses, and I have successfully dredged through that to land here, post-tuna-consumption, on my hiney, sharing my thoughts. Week 11 is a milestone for me because the 16 months prior to these eleven weeks have been some of my most challenging, depressed months since 2013.  I won't step on the scale for another few weeks to check on the quantifiable results of my efforts, but not focusing on the numbers is once again reminding me of the qualities which really count.  Qualities like how much stronger and physically healthier I have started t...
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Merry Christmas!

"Welcome back" to me.  This is my first time having a personal computer in, I suspect, five and a half years.  I had envisioned myself having a much more eloquent and interesting blog, but then I discovered this old blog I'd started.  I like the name I chose for this blog, and I like to finish what I started, so I'm going to practice blogging, and hope that the practice brings eventual improvement. 'Yesterday' was a pleasant Christmas eve.  N and I did some shopping, then came home and spent the day inside, her on her technotube, and me doing baking.  In the evening, we watched the ELF movie together, then wrapped some gifts, and had spaghetti supper together. I sampled every bit of my baking, and I know I'm going to be starting all over with my weight loss, because I've gained back almost all 80 of the pounds I had lost two years ago.  First I am going to work on my anxiety levels, constantly reaffirming myself and practicing a positive outlook, ...
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Lisa's Log, Stardate 20110517

Today was a late shift day at work.  50/50 day.  My CTS was painful today, especially when I wasn't unloading the machine. NA apparently helped CC w/ watering her little shrubs, then went to her Pre-K.  While she was out, CC replaced the shrubs w/ seeders which are ca. twice as tall.  So when NA returned from school and raced out to help CC resume watering, her mouth fell open in awe, and she exclaimed something about how the trees grew! My CCTB issues aren't over yet, but I did send in the info via regular snailmail, which is contrary to my original promise to send it express post.  I'll call the woman tomorrow and clarify/inquire further. I want to make a card for SB, as her grandfather apparently passed away this morning, so I'm signing off for now.   Bless~ L
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